By Eddy Montilla.
Those gloomy feelings are coming again…
And with then,
doubts and moments of hesitation,
faltering steps, abrupt stops
and lost looks are here too.
And those butterflies that once I had forgotten them
emerge from fire to bring my fate:
They presage with incandescent flight
the arrival of a romance
that never had a beginning, that never had an end.
My heart is covered with confusion again.
And it asks me the same question over and over:
Since when my reality became so absurd
that today absurdity has become my reality?
I go for a walk at nightfall, as usual
Trying to find reasons and explanations,
Trying to organize my thoughts,
running away from sibylline clouds
that threaten me with taking my biggest treasure:
Peace in my mind, peace in my heart.
They make me see images that I don’t want to remember,
feelings that I want to forget.
This is how fears and anxiety come to life.
Difficult days are back.
Time to wait is here,
minutes, in a couple of minutes, become hours;
and moments, eternal silence.
Yes. Difficult days are back
and encounters too:
chance encounters sometimes,
forced encounters almost all the time.
And I am always thinking what I should say
foreseeing situations that never happened.
At times, I believe that I have seen goblins,
mischievous goblins with pure heart that like to cause me trouble
by taking me to a world
where loneliness reigns, where memories live.
They take me with their winged feet to the highest sky
to achieve chimeras, and later,
make me crash and make me feel bad.
And then, at that time, something strange happens…
And moments of happiness are also coming too,
ephemeral moments with eternal look.
And I can see hills, mountains and rainbows,
stars laughing, lovers thinking.
Chaffinches talking and larks singing.
I write verses and read poems again
and live in an imaginary world,
a world tailor-made for me,
surrounded by peonies and pansies
beneath a cerulean sky by the sea:
I fell in love again.
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